Frequently, I question myself, “What is the meaning of life?” and “What is the point of living?”.
What is the purpose of my parents and I suffering in this rather awful house, within this awful subdivision that we’ve been living in since September, 1990?
What is the point of my parents and I living in this subdivision and this house, which is more like a crowded slum and a business where everyone is constantly doing something, moving around, and being on top of one another; as opposed to a home where one feels at home, complete, and where everyone has their own space?
What is the purpose of Marc and Laurene “Laurie” Brown conjuring up their Characters of Arthur, his parents, and his sisters as a socially normal family?
What was the purpose of my parents during the late 1990’s and up until the late 2000’s, trying to make our nuclear family in real life as socially normal as Arthur’s nuclear family is in the ‘Arthur’ Books and Animated Television Series?
What is the point of Warren Consolidated Schools Teachers, and husband and wife Steve and Carole Gerling; having a family as socially normal as that of the character Arthur’s nuclear family, and also as the family of Bill Cosby and Phylicia Rashad’s characters on The Cosby Show; Bill and Claire Huxtable?
What is the point of Warren Consolidated Schools Teacher Carolyn Armbruster having a nuclear family that is as socially normal as the family of Bill Cosby and Phylicia Rashad’s characters on The Cosby Show; Bill and Claire Huxtable?
What is the point of Warren Consolidated Schools Teacher Carolyn Ann Tuzzo, during the time her husband Vincent Tuzzo was alive, and after he had passed away; having a nuclear family that is as socially normal as the family of Bill Cosby and Phylicia Rashad’s characters on The Cosby Show; Bill and Claire Huxtable?
What is the purpose of Marc and Laurie Brown delineating Arthur and his nuclear family as being active in their community?
Likewise, from the late 1990’s to the late 2000’s; what was the purpose of my parents being as active in this awful community that we’ve lived in since September, 1990; as Marc and Laurie Brown portray Arthur and his nuclear family to be in their community?
What was the purpose of my parents and I suffering through the Minivans and the two Buick Rendezvous that my parents had owned, as depicted in the photographs below?
What was the purpose over my parents having as strong of emotions towards the Minivans, and Buick Rendezvous that they had owned as Warren Consolidated Schools Teachers Terri Dworkin, Steve & Carole Gerling, and Carolyn Ann Tuzzo each had over the Minivans that they had owned?
In part and parcel to my parents, from the late 1990’s up until the late 2000’s, my parents trying to make my nuclear family a socially normal family; what was the purpose of suffering through my parents making me sit in the backseat of a vehicle rather in the front Passenger Seat, or in the middle of a Front Bench Seat?
What is the purpose of hearing Shannon express her opinion about how actual children, adolescents, and adult children should always be forced to sit in the backseat of a vehicle; at any time they are transported in a vehicle?
What was the purpose of my parents, during the late 1990’s and early-mid 2000’s; watching WDIV-TV’s newscasts, WJBK-TV’s newscasts as a FOX affiliate? What was the purpose of my father, during the late 1990’s; listening to WDRQ-FM (nee WJBK-FM), WRIF-FM (nee WXYZ-FM), WPLT-FM/WDVD-FM (nee WJR-FM), CIDR-FM (nee CKLW-FM), and CIMX-FM (nee CKWW-FM)?
In part and parcel, what was the purpose of my parents, during the late 1990’s up until the mid-2010’s, believing that a Radio Station, is a Radio Station, is a Radio Station; and that a Television Station, is a Television Station, is a Television Station?
What was the purpose of my parents having my mother’s family in their lives, and them trying to force me to have my mother’s family in my life?
What is the purpose of my parents and I meeting my sister and her imbecilic husband at awful Pizzerias such as the Detroit-based Buddy’s Pizza chain, and inviting them over to our awful house; not unlike the gatherings with my mother’s family?
For your information, an offshoot of Buddy’s Pizza; Loui’s Pizza, located in the Detroit suburb of Hazel Park, Michigan since 1953; has always been a much better Pizzeria than Buddy’s Pizza.
What was the purpose of dealing with people from my mother’s family, Warren Consolidated Schools Teachers Carolyn Armbruster, Steve & Carole Gerling, Julie Stanaway, and Amy Bunch; and Warren Consolidated Schools School Bus Driver Anita Jacob owning Suburbans, Escalades, Expeditions, Navigators, Full-Size Pickup Trucks Full-Size Blazers/2-Door Tahoes, Full-Size Broncos, Ramchargers/TrailDusters, Jeeps, and Land Rovers?
In part and parcel, what was the purpose of dealing with my parents, beginning in the late 1990’s; having moved on from having vehicles like Full-Size Station Wagons, Suburbans, and Volkswagens. And, my father should not view it as being no big deal that all of my mother’s relatives now (as of the late 1990’s and the early-mid 2000’s) own vehicles like this, while my parents no longer do.
In addition, what was the purpose of dealing with my father, during the late 1990’s and for a good portion of the 2000’s; regarding vehicles such as a Suburban, Full-Size Blazer, and vehicles on the GM B and Ford Panther Platforms as just machines, appliances, and pieces of steel no different than Minivans and Crossover Utility Vehicle like the Pontiac Aztek and Buick Rendezvous?
Moreover, what was the purpose of dealing with my father, during the late 1990’s and for a good portion of the 2000’s; thinking and feeling that my mother’s side of our family is identical to his own? Or, in other words; that a relative is just a relative? And likewise, my father feeling that a vehicle is just a vehicle, a house is just a house, an area is just an area; and a neighborhood is just a neighborhood.
What was the purpose of my father, during the late 1990’s and for a good portion of the 2000’s, my father being in denial over people such as my parents, themselves; Chris, Jim, and I have always been much better people to possess a vehicle like a Suburban, a a Full-Size Pickup Truck, a Full-Size Van, a Jeep, and a Land Rover than my mother’s entire family?
Furthermore, what was the purpose of my father, in the late 1990’s and for a good portion of the 2000’s, disregarding me being one of the significant few in this world who respect the history of Jeep and Land Rover, as well as those who use Jeeps and Land Rovers for Agricultural, Commercial, or Industrial uses, and as a substitute for a Tractor, Bulldozer, or Forklift via their PTO Units?
What is the purpose of suffering through all of the changes that NASCAR has gone through since the beginning of the 21st Century, NASCAR trying to be a cohort to Basketball, American Football, Baseball, Ice Hockey, and Association Football/Soccer; the presence of modern Broadcast Networks such as FOX in NASCAR, and the presence of Drivers in NASCAR such as Jimmie Johnson, Kevin Harvick, Elliott Sadler, Kasey Kahne, Denny Hamlin, Brian Vickers, Matt Kenseth, Casey Mears, Carl Edwards, Regan Smith, and Johnny Sauter?
What is the purpose of dealing with my parents being tenderhearted towards my mother’s family, Jimmie Johnson, Kevin Harvick, Elliott Sadler, Kasey Kahne, Denny Hamlin, Brian Vickers, Matt Kenseth, Casey Mears, and Regan Smith; my father offering his generous chauffeur service to all of them, my parents, in part and parcel; transporting them all in the ghastly Minivans and Buick Rendezvous that my parents had owned, and being acquiescent towards their interest and participation in stick and ball Sports?
More specifically, my parents transporting my mother’s family, my sister, Kevin Harvick, Elliott Sadler, Kasey Kahne, Denny Hamlin, Brian Vickers, Matt Kenseth, Casey Mears, and Regan Smith in their Minivans and 3-Row CUVs to family gatherings, other family events, social events, Band and Music events, Sports practices; and actual Sporting events?
What is the purpose of Shannon moving on from her husband Ray, her grandmother Marie “Mimi”, and her mother Mary Ann; and Shannon not letting the spirits of Ray, Mimi, and Mary Ann dictate her life? What is the purpose of dealing with the vagaries in Shannon’s behavior?
In addition, what is the purpose of Shannon behaving as cold as Warren Consolidated Schools Teachers Carolyn Armbruster, Carolyn Ann Tuzzo, Celia Socha, Mary Ellen Green, Ann Kolinski, Julie Dean, Steve Gerling, Terri Dworkin, Patricia Venaleck, Jill Alred, Gilka Calazans-Paxton, and Julie Stegman? What is the purpose of Shannon also behaving as cold Warren Consolidated Schools School Bus Drivers Kim “Froggie” Proch, Mary Behr, Penny Orban, Anne Waldowski, Cheryl “Sherry” Bacarella-Misiak, and Anita Jacob?
https://www.waldenu.edu/why-walden/faculty/jill-alred
https://www.kazoocivic.com/tuzzo-joana-biography
Before Mary Agnes’s “Mag” passing in February, 2020; what was the purpose of Mag moving on from her grandmother Marie “Mimi”, and her mother Mary Ann; and Mag not letting the spirits of Mimi and Mary Ann dictate her life before her passing?
https://www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/baltimoresun/name/mag-dusseau-obituary?id=16245690
What is the purpose of Alison and Colin moving on from their parents Mary Ann and Whit, and their grandparents Marie “Mimi” and Stan, and Alison and Colin not letting the spirits of Mary Ann, Whit, Mimi, and Stan dictate their lives?
What is the purpose of Colin and his wife Sheila being acquiescent towards their their own three sons, Kevin Harvick, Elliott Sadler, Regan Smith, Kasey Kahne, Denny Hamlin, Brian Vickers, Casey Mears, Matt Kenseth and his son Ross, Formula 1 Drivers Jenson Button and Nick Heidfeld, and Indy Car Drivers James Hinchcliffe, Robert Wickens, Josef Newgarden, and Conor Daly’s interest in Sports?
What is the purpose of Mallory Tarcher-Lewis moving on from her mother Shari Lewis, and her aunt and well-regarded novelist Judith Krantz, and Mallory not letting the spirits of her mother and Judith Krantz dictate her life; and Mallory also being a bitch not unlike Warren Consolidated Schools Teacher Julie Stanaway, and the murderers of pupil Donald Scott “Scotty” Baker, Suzanne Baker and Stephanie Spitser?
See this earlier post regarding the FBI Case involving the murder of Donald Scott “Scotty” Baker, and the convictions of both Suzanne Baker and Stephanie Spitser: FBI Case Involving The Kidnapping And Murder Of Donald Scott “Scotty” Baker Jr. In London, Kentucky In November, 1992.
What is the purpose of Ann and her husband Paul both not letting the spirts Ann and Margaret’s parents Joe and Martha dictate their lives?
What was the purpose of Carletta, likewise to John Roeck and Jeannette Wesolowski after they had retired; not understanding the emotional importance of School Buses to people such as yours truly, and others whose videos I’ve embedded in this earlier post Heaven, And Other Universes Are Absolutely Wonderful Places To Exist In?
Corresponding to these earlier posts that I’ve written about my time with God, and my visits to Heaven, and to Other Universes: Heaven, And Other Universes Are Absolutely Wonderful Places To Exist In, My Association With God, My Contacts With The Dead During Seances, And My Visits To Heaven, And To Other Universes Bring Me Peace, Even More Spiritual Figures That I’ve Encountered During The Times I Spend With God, And My Visits To Heaven; And To Other Universes, and My Life In An Alternate Universe; I truly that I was born in the wrong time and era, that I belong in a different time, that I was born into the wrong version of my family, and that God and other higher powers had put me on this Earth to keep society complacent, and the world form evolving in any way imaginable, and to keep the customs of the Xennial, Millenial, and Generation Z peoples from emerging.
To put it into context, I believe that I belong in the particular Universe where the 1970’s, 1980’s, and early 1990’s linger for eternity, my parents and I each own more GM B-Platform Station Wagons, Suburbans, and Volkswagens and Audis, since an earlier time; we’ve moved out of the house in the Detroit suburb of Warren, Michigan where my parents have lived for over 30 years in reality, and into a House within the area of Oakland Township, Lakeville, and Leonard Township, Michigan on acres of property under one roof with my Paternal Grandmother, we have a Sub-Compact or Compact Tractor, or the very least-a Front Mount Mower that looks like a Sub-Compact Tractor with it’s operating area turned around. and the operator facing the Mower while sitting inversely over the larger-sized Rear Wheels; we are much closer to my father’s family than my mother’s, Shannon and her siblings are subservient to Mimi and Mary Ann, Shannon is also subservient to her husband Ray, Alison is subservient to her husband David, Mallory is subservient to her mother Shari Lewis, and NASCAR forevermore remains the same as it was during the 1970’s, 1980’s, and the early 1990’s. I have also written about this particular Universe in this earlier post The Things That Matter The Most To Have In Order To Have A Happy And Successful Life.
Maybe I should have passed away sometime during the late 1990’s. Maybe I should pass away at some point in time in the nearer future.
Along the lines of the British Monarchy adopting a motto “Adapt or Die”, and to another extent; many believing that with the exception of Birds; that all other Dinosaurs were annihilated during the Cretaceous–Paleogene extinction event before the presence of hominids (including us Human Beings) on this planet because Dinosaurs were not “designed” and “programmed” for lack of better words, to adapt, habilitate, survive, and thrive in the climates and environments that would exist following the asteroid crashing into the Yucatan Peninsula in modern-day Mexico (the crater that formed as a result of the Asteroid crashing into the Yucatan Peninsula is known as the Chicxulub Crater); I shall chose to perish, rather than accept the dumbing down of society and the world around me changing since the late 1990’s, technologies and ways of life becoming obsolete as times moves on, people coming and going in my life, and people I love passing away.
As a result, I have arrived at the conclusion that since the late 1990’s, there hasn’t been much of a point for me to live (or, in other words; be alive). I also feel that I belong in Heaven, and in other Universes with the people I love who have since passed away; and the technologies and ways of life that have since become obsolete.
Matthew Parij 
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